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What makes me the artist I am?

The art is always a reflection of one’s soul, but also of one’s life. Here is what makes my art the way it is, and me – the artist I am.

1. Being self-taught. Most of my pieces look a tad off-beat, not clearly falling into any known style, because I never really learned how it “should” be in a systemic manner. Sometimes, when I see some formally educated artists progressing quicker on their path then I do on mine, I think that maybe I should learn more of the art theory, start collecting materials or exploring education opportunities… and this urge never lasts long:). I just find discovering things on my own, in ways and order that I define myself, much more interesting.

      2. Using lots of hand-drawing and hand-painting in my work. I do fully digital pieces from time to time, but those make only around 5-7% of my portfolio. I simply do not find digital creation process as rewarding as real painting/drawing. It has a lot to do with my love to sensory experiences (see below), but also, I really like the co-creation feeling the watercolor gives, or spontaneity of the very uneven ink brush strokes. Large part of my work is 100% composed on paper, with all the elements coming to the final pattern exactly the way and in the order they were painted/drawn. It takes much more time and patience to digitize the hand work, than to simply draw it in vector, but to me it is very much worth it.

      3. My hands being a bit shaky. It’s not very notable in my daily life, but my hands are slightly shaking all the time (physiological tremor, not dangerous, just a bit challenging at daily tasks requiring precision), making my lines always wiggling here and there. At first, I tried to correct my “imperfect” lines when digitizing my designs, but it was absolutely straining, and often robbed my elements of life, so I stopped it… and things only went better since then.

      4. Lot of experience in contacting with nature. I grew up at countryside, with free access to all kinds of trees, wild grasses, and whatever we were growing on our large plot of land, as well a variety of animals and birds all around. When I draw raspberry leaves, I reflect on the memory of their texture, my peonies carry the feeling of the last days of spring, and the hedgehogs I draw smiling remembering the funny breathing noises they make. My art is rarely very detailed, but often brings a lot of realistic feeling due to the emotional vibe which comes from that through my brushes and markers.

      5. Being a woman. My art is distinctively feminine, with fluid lines and some kind of natural, bright cheerful energy. It’s an amazing side of me, and a place where I always want to be, regardless the challenges of my life and the ways I have to navigate it.

      6. Being a mother. I know that it doesn’t necessarily take having kids to do designs for nursery, and I even don’t have small kids anymore, and hardly ever will again. But there is a certain amount of reflection on my motherhood experiences in my baby and kids designs, which I often see only once the design is ready. In my shop there always will be a ton of cutest florals and kittens, inspired by the childhood times of my daughters, and also, recently, I have clearly identified longing for boys, which I never had, in the planes, cars, and dogs that I eagerly drew for kids-themed design challenges:).

      7. Being (highly possibly) neurodivergent. Currently I am undergoing an ADHD assessment, which I went for when discovering information on how ADHD presents in women. So far it looks that I will get the diagnosis, and I am absolutely excited about that, as it explains so much happening during my 40+ years of life, which I struggled so long with to find an explanation why it goes this way with me. And, certainly, it contributes to my artistic style and the way I am going on my artistic path – versatility of my styles, my love to traditional highly sensory mediums, the expressiveness of my work, my at times extreme creative productivity, etc, combined with awful struggle with “boring” routine tasks like SMM or SEO.

      8. My overall life experience. One day I will write a bio about all the crazy things I went through in my life (and by that time there probably will be more to write about), these days it is just very hard to find time to summarize it all. I made ways from a rural girl to an internationally acknowledged expert in the area I made no formal training in, survived wartime and emigration, lost loved ones including children, dared to step on the paths everyone advised me against and completed those with success no one expected, fell deep, got back on my feet,… it’s just really a lot. And all of that finds its way in my art too, making it standing out.

      9. My daily persistence. It actually should have come first, not last. No one is born an artist, but we can make artists of anything we were born. If I haven’t been so committed to my creative path, and haven’t showed up for my business every day (even for a couple minutes, but yes, often those are hours of work), I wouldn’t have been where I am now. There is still a long way to go to reach my long-term creative goals, but I love my path and trust my process. And continue showing up every day.

      And what makes you the artist you are?

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      My 2023 overview

      (written on the last day of December 2023, waited very patiently until I found time to publish it:))

      My 2023, another crazy year of my life, but quite one to remember.


      Year 2023 turned out to be some kind of a breakthrough year for me as an artist, maybe with not so much of visible results, but a lot of right seeds planted.

      It was the third year of me painting and (slowly) walking a way to a full-time artist/designer career. From autumn 2020 on, I have been constantly doing art in whatever free time I had from my day job and care about my family, and it was just in 2023, when I dared to call myself an artist, publicly and loud. Yes, it took time, to acknowledge this, even (first!) to myself, even though I don’t remember myself being not creative.

      The three best decisions that I made as an artist in 2023 were:

      • Focusing on one thing at a time and making it work (at least showing signs of working),
      • Taking advice and tailored support from experts, and
      • Working on mindset and strategic thinking.

      Focusing on one thing

      Early in the year I decided to return to making seamless patterns. Actually, I was interested in surface design from the very first days of starting watercolor practices, back in 2020, and even made my first patterns in early 2021. Then somehow my focus was shifted to other things for quite a while. But last year in January, I started doing it again, and all the 2023 I just did seamless patterns and uploaded them in my online store.

      The platform I’ve chosen to invest in was Spoonflower. I wanted to launch a shop there since ages, but at the time I got to know about it, I lived in a country with no access to PayPal selling function, and only got that with moving to Germany in 2022 and opening a bank account here. As I somehow was withholding myself from seamless patterns (and Spoonflower needs it this way), before I experimented with Redbubble (which is a great platform when it comes to uploading designs, but didn’t work for me in terms of sales), Society6 (which is neither great when uploading, nor it worked for me in terms of sales, too) and Etsy (where I had a shop with digital prints since early 2021, and in almost two years had seven sales altogether, so I just closed it, as listing extension there is paid, and I spent on that times and times more than I earned). Yes, I know about people earning their living from each of those platforms, and I even do not exclude coming back to one or all three of those one day, but in 2023 I just put all those aside, and concentrated on Spoonflower.

      This first year of my Spoonflower shop going live was crazy intensive, but amazingly productive. I started from scratch, uploaded the first bunch of designs in late January 2023, got my first proofs in mid-February, and… was completely dissatisfied with most of them. And started learning how color and scale work. Re-worked some, discarded some. Tried creating designs with less color. Tried creating designs with more color. Learned vector designing. Tried combining watercolor and vector. Tried fully vector designs. Ordered tons of proofs at every stage. Got a bit more satisfied with the looks. Got stuck with what I want to create. Came back to watercolor. Painted like crazy and converted all that into patterns. Uploaded, uploaded, uploaded. Worked on SEO, re-worked my SEO. Starting from the legendary Piglet and Butter, participated in every single challenge on Spoonflower (except two, totally beyond the zone of my creative interests). Tracked trends, applied trends, tried to predict trends. Analyzed my progress. Celebrated small wins.

      As of 31 December 2023, I have got my Spoonflower shop packed with over 2,100 (two thousand one hundred) designs for sale, each having maybe not so perfect, but completed SEO sections. It was quite timely, in the light of the recent Spoonflower changes, limiting the weekly number of new designs for sale, as there were weeks I ordered proofs of over hundred designs. My shop is still a bit of this and that, but it slowly starts looking the way I want it to. I cannot even count how many lessons I learned during this year working with just one (but right for me!) platform. Investment of this time, all my work, and some (not so big) financial resource, already paid off in a very much clear vision of what can work well for me as an artist and designer, so in 2024 I will start developing other platforms/directions already much better informed (less time, quicker results). And new experience of people all over the globe making crazy amazing things of the fabrics with my designs! And, surely, income. It was still at micro level, nevertheless it progressed, and this was already very indicative.

      Taking advice

      This year I took two absolutely great opportunities of getting help from experienced designers, as I felt that whatever I can get from public communities and non-exclusive paid classes is no longer enough for my development (and I had already applied all of the useful info I got from those, which is important). I was ready for more.


      In March 2023, I joined the brilliant Erin Kendal‘s membership for surface designers, and this was (and still is) priceless. Apart from the knowledge Erin generously shares with us, there is an absolutely unique community of pattern designers of all levels. We support each other in all the kinds of situations, our atmosphere there is really one of a kind, and you will never find such insights and exchanges in public communities. For those of you who already know that surface design is your thing – this is the best investment imaginable as of today for this sector. It is NOT about creating patterns (this you can find nowadays in abundance everywhere), it is about how to make your patterns SELL. Practical, doable things only, no nonsense. Discover more about the membership HERE.


      Also, in July 2023, when I got stuck on my artistic way, I have got a one-on-one session with fantastic Ohn Mar Win. My request was about development of the signature style, and I cannot be happier about the results. Ohn Mar knows how to get your true self into your art, and those of you who know me in person and follow my art, can already notice how much of my character started showing through my patterns during the last several months. I somehow managed to change my prism, from trying to maximally follow the trends to rather accommodating those resonating with what I want to do in my art. For those interested, Ohn Mar works with artists of many different kinds and on many topics. She opens her session windows several times a year, you can follow her Instagram account to catch one. Also, she has a Patreon subscription, where she offers live calls.

      My artistic mindset: last but not least

      In 2023 I became much kinder to myself and accepted my artistic way as it is. I celebrated all my achievements, regardless of how small they were, and also those not visible or measurable. Because they are seeds of future bigger things. I stopped inventing targets to reach, they are nothing but frustrating for emerging artists. Instead, I just kept my strategic artistic goals in mind and asked myself from time to time: are the steps I do today in the direction of those? And does this way still feel good to me? As the latter is what matters the most.


      Year 2024 will be another year of work, and I wish everyone a lot of joy from the daily creative processes, in your art and life routine things. Love and hugs to all of you, Good People, and only best things to happen to you in 2024!

      Your Ania:)